Following Day, Tuesday
October 2, 2019 12:12 AM Wasted the day again. Wanted to use the TBLGAY room, but it was locked. Feeling sad and unmotivated to do anything, even help mum or answer questions —Later on from Oct 8th, I finally went to see a counsellor at the Counselling Services. Been postponing it as I don't know [..more..]
Following Day, Tuesday
October 2, 2019 12:12 AM Wasted the day again. Wanted to use the TBLGAY room, but it was locked. Feeling sad and unmotivated to do anything, even help mum or answer questions —Later on from Oct 8th, I finally went to see a counsellor at the Counselling Services. Been postponing it as I don't know [..more..]
Thanksgiving Sunday at Izirein’s
October 13, 2019 6:31 PM Went to the thanksgiving dinner at Izirein. Again, socially overwhelmed by the numerous family members I can't relate with. One of the sons came with big speakers for music. He's into music. My mum asks me to help them set up the audio equipment, probably because she felt I was [..more..]
Tried Soccer in the Fall
October 22, 2019 10:43 PM Felt uncomfortable in the locker room Felt discouraged seeing others perform on the field. Actually thought of leaving. Felt uncomfortable even with people watching me as I walk by. Felt lonely after the game. Met the captain in the subway and couldn't express myself comfortably. Had a jokeful comment about [..more..]
Stay over at Izirein’s
December 22, 2019 8:00 PM This place is boring as f***. After a boring and uncomfortable day at the church event. Then going out to accompany Ohi in carrying his mum's luggage and "fixing" the toilet (it was a minor replacement of the flushing handle. No big deal, even though they make it sound so). [..more..]
Just remembered some things and decided to write
January 30, 2020 7:45 PM After I did some work in the Summer of 2018 and saved around 2000CAD, I spent some (around 50) on sexual content. I spent 500 on getting a phone. Some hiccups made the process of getting the phone more expensive (like the stupid unexpected custom fees from FedEx. Also the [..more..]
Thoughts and Experiences on First Sunday February
February 2, 2020 12:13 PM I'm just having random memories and imaginations I'm at church. When a person asks for my name. This person knows my sisters. Instead of telling them my official name (Chinonyerem) , I just told them my preferred name, "Tournel". I feel so uncomfortable telling anyone my official name. I simply [..more..]
Day I took a shot the Subway suicide poster
February 6, 2020 9:04 PM Since I'm a failure and economically worthless, I'm thinking about getting myself to die soon. Funny how the signs in TTC stations claim there's help when there isn't. It's too expensive to get into a psychology clinic. Waiting times are also insane. I can't get any diagnosis or documentation as [..more..]
COM 111 Exam Day
December 10, 2020 1:06 AM I had the COM111 Exam today. I attempted it, but I couldn't figure out how to write the essay. Questions were an analysis of the point "The definition of beauty is ever-changing" from the essay "My body is my own business" by Naheed Mustafa. I couldn't put out the words [..more..]
Last EVP Class and week 12
December 3, 2020 11:52 AM This week and today especially is messed up. From only realising there was a Test #2 in EVS141 that I missed. To missing today's EVP151 field work because I was late. Then almost getting to work late (had to take Rideshare which was expensive). I didn't see the announcements for [..more..]