“You always cry”
Once again I lay here, the only one awake in the darkness. I sit here crying as I listen to the kids quiet snoring, along with his loud echoing ones. Everytime i look at him the tears flow more. 8 years. 8 years of me crying alone while he sleeps soundly besides me. 8 years [..more..]
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I want to cry but im afraid they will hear me
Dear M
I don't to be with you anymore. I hope that's the truth, but it is not. My heart is in pain just thinking about how much it would hurt once you leave me, but hey, what if I leave you first? Do you think that I'll feel like I won the war? Yes, the war. [..more..]
Is this all?
The way the world is these days we may feel that our future is bleak. But upon further study of the scriptures I've found that there is hope. Revelation 21:3, 4 reads…God will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. [..more..]
Fear of Failing
People talk about their fear of failure. Well, here I am. Failure in the flesh. Everyday I wake up, get ready for the day, sit in front of this computer and begin the hunt. Everything is on the computer now and it has become so easy for employers to overlook an application because the machine [..more..]
I
Fear I will cry tonight
what is love
I dont love you. No matter how many times you tell me you love me, no matter how many good things you do for me i dont love you. You forced my "love" and now it wil never be there. What am i to do, i cannot break your hurt. I may not love you [..more..]
I Feel Fine
I feel fine. It's strange that so much of my life has been spent riddled with anxiety, and now that my life is getting even more stressful I am finally feeling okay. Why is it that I am able to handle my responsibilities when I have so many more? It's amazing in so many ways.
He’s getting married
I don't know how i feel… I wrote a couple months back about how I may or may not be in love with my best friend. I love him dearly and sometimes i think i only love him as a friend and some days I feel like he's "the one". After speaking to a friend [..more..]