21-12-11(19:18:34)
I wish i was everything to someone. I’m too used to being an afterthought or an, ‘Oh i like her, but not enough to want anything serious with her.’. I feel like it’s always me that throws all of the feeling into the situation. I don’t like feeling unhappy about this.
20-12-11(2:24:20)
I am so glad I found this. I am so frustrated with every aspect of my life. I hate school its so f***ing hard. I hate finals. I hate everything. I am so sick of people telling me I am pretty. That is a CROCK OF F***ING S***. Because if anyone meant what the f*** [..more..]
17-12-11(21:56:56)
When we feel like everything is hopeless we see the part of ourselves we don’t want to be. A person who is willing to give up. -DeviaAnimus
16-12-11(3:33:38)
I looked this place up because I don’t like hand writing in my journal and no one knows who I am so it makes it so much easier because I need to express myself where I won’t be judged. I need to cry sometimes because I’m overly sensitive, and sometimes I think of things that [..more..]
14-12-11(6:29:15)
Break up with me. I mean it. I wish you would. If you broke up with me could we be friends and talk and laugh like we used to? F***, could we discuss everything and nothing? Could we be best friends again? Because f***ing anything is better than this silence, it makes me confused and [..more..]
11-12-11(5:41:16)
What is Enlightment By Thomas Evans You may hear around these parts the common phrase we use as ´Enlightenment´. So just what is it? I will better describe what I interpret this as. Every morning I awaken I am in love. Not only with the women and family I wake to see but everything that [..more..]
10-12-11(5:55:56)
i dont understand why my family just cant accept me for who i am. I work extremely hard in school and I always do the right thing. I consider myself a good person with good values and morals, but i just cant ever seem to please them– my mom, my dad, and my older sister [..more..]
10-12-11(3:22:37)
You know, i dont get it! Any of it! So many questions, so many thoughts. I hate looking in the mirror, and seeing what i look ike, i hate being alone, something is wrong with me, why else would i cry myself to sleep everynight!?? I constantly feel like someting is missing, but i dont [..more..]
08-12-11(10:17:10)
Today, i lost my bestfriend of 11 years. She has decided to move to Balina, with her boyfriend. Am i suppose to be happy for her, smile and fight my tears back as she leaves her family, her friends and i behind. Am i suppose to forget the fact that she has been apart of [..more..]
08-12-11(10:07:19)
why do i feel like everything i do, is never good enough for you. im always seeking your approval, that few words that mean so much to hear. “im proud of you” or even just “well done” its always do this, or do that. i can’t do anything right. And im tired of you treating [..more..]