08-12-11(0:38:35)
y does he always make dumb comments about everything….he always makes me feel dum, thats why i dont share my ideas often/…. he says he loves me but for some reason he always manages to make me feel less… one day he told me that im ok but i can be “better” i just needed [..more..]
06-12-11(5:14:19)
my name is Paul Garcia and this year i see all these people wearing warm cloths having nice thing’s and family loving them having a good time not having to worry about how there going to eat or how they are going to get somwhere… that used to be me. im 16 years old and [..more..]
05-12-11(16:04:54)
today is the day that i start to appreciate his love and attention and everythign he does for me. i cant believe i have cried like crazy, and have said that i dont want to be with him anymore and i just want to leave…… when i really dont feel like that ……… and he [..more..]
30-11-11(16:59:33)
i hate myself right now. idk why but i know im a total mess and i cant do anything to make it better. i think everyone around me hate me too. i cant take control of my life and everything’s a mess. i disappoint everyone and myself. im not good with my God either and [..more..]
29-11-11(1:10:51)
…..i hate everything. i hate myself. i hate my family. i hate my house. i hate my life. ive carved f*** up into my arm at least 20 times in the past two months…. ill have a perminant scar of “f*** up” on my arm so that everyone i meet will know to stay away [..more..]
28-11-11(16:02:12)
I did it again. I know I should try to stop but I needed it. I needed that feeling of release. I needed to breathe. It was just 12 little lines down my arm. Nothing compared to the times before. But it meant everything. She would have been 6 months old today. 6 months old. [..more..]
28-11-11(15:57:52)
I did it again. I know I should try to stop but I needed it. I needed that feeling of release. I needed to breathe. It was just 12 little lines down my arm. Nothing compared to the times before. But it meant everything. She would have been 6 months old today. 6 months old. [..more..]
28-11-11(3:57:09)
I would rather he cheat on me than break up with me right now. I swear to God. I can’t handle rejection right now, I’m sick. Literally, I’m on so many pain meds right now. But he’s so honourable. He wouldn’t, he would do the right thing. But I’ll die if he breaks up with [..more..]
17-11-11(9:54:16)
my mind blocked out everything but then it all came back at me at once, now my wrists are bleeding and its so hard to stop. I just want to cut away everything I feel dirty I feel like my skin just needs to be hacked at. Is that the only way I can get [..more..]
13-11-11(6:10:30)
We make eye contact sometimes. We’ve talked a little. Hi’s and hello’s, because we’re both friendly. I just want you to know, I’m strong…..I’m strong, and, I’m also weak. I pretend, I don’t like you, and walk past you in the hallways like you’re nothing. Sadly, Zach. You,are, not, NOTHING, to me. You’re everything. Mabye [..more..]