Sad
Nothing really matters in the end. It never has and never will. Everything is meaningless. What's the f***ing point?. I'm hollow, cold, and hurting. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know why I try. Acknowledging that no one played a key role in unconditionally loving me has been heartbreaking, not ever learning [..more..]
F***
I just want to get f***ed hard right now!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, god!
Dream
I want to be a cat themed vigilante
I’m still taking
I'm still talking and bringing up things that don't matter. They are still with their bullying, nasty posts. That's fine! I've kept some to show. They made me look bad, I played into it. They got what they wanted. In the end it just really doesn't matter. I don't have the need to explain myself [..more..]
I have had no
I have never asked for anything from you. I haven't wanted anything from you up-front. I don't need anything from you. I have never intentionally made you do anything for me. I didn't trap you. What you felt was because of what you let yourself feel. Now tell me, please.
I’m so tired
I've been trying so hard to become an idol trainee for the past year and a half. I've barely rested… I live in America, I'm half white half chinese, I'm not super ugly, I'm still rather young, and I genuinely do believe that I can sing and dance relatively well. I've worked so so so [..more..]
Uhm
I realised in the past I was cordial with her because I needed to stay here. Even after I gave birth, things got worse because the b**** refused to help out a sickly young mother, I still muted my mouth and tried my best to get along with her. Then things took a turn when [..more..]
One time only
I can remember a time when my mind was clear. I had picked up a book on meditation that came along with a CD. I practiced for about a week, then it happened. As I did the start of what I had learned I could tell something was different. I cleared my mind of all [..more..]
Kill them with kindness
This really works haha. I know that causes her even more discomfort than when I ignore her. To be frank, I have never been really mean to her. She’s been mean to me for years and everyone can see that now. I know when I ignore her she feels angry! And she becomes more and [..more..]
Just another rant
January 7, 2020 6:38 PM Looking at my past and looking forward, I'm not sure I want to proceed with living. No prospect of me finishing my degree. Failed my courses. About to be kicked out of university by the academic warning. Can't qualify for petition options. Didn't get any psychological evaluation I can submit [..more..]