Should I go with this plan???
Finding out my path seems to be easier than I thought but there is a problem to this path that I chose. What is it that needs to be gone exactly? My mother, that’s what. The pressure to give her everything is growing but the hatred for her is also growing. I knew all along [..more..]
Just feel like talking
The world is pretty funny. Don’t you think? It brings pain so often that you can get confused on how to live. The more you think about something, the more you get confused on what the answer truly is. We humans are pretty stupid at times. I made a promise to myself to not say [..more..]
Too much thinking to do
A new semester could mean a new meaning to what kind of person I would want to be. Who knows what that is? I for sure hell as won’t know crap about what I truly want. For some reason, rejecting a lot of people about decisions is what keeps coming around and around. Learning something [..more..]
Attending college…
There was a slight hint of not going to college. A bright happiness that was going to get out of the way of this dream. Oh what a life! There’s a sadly but true thing that I am going to college. The hope of not going was so thrilling but life had turned my own [..more..]
Don’t want to finish college
Well… I found out recently that college isn’t for me. I know, I know, “it isn’t for most people!” Working instead of going to college doesn’t sound so bad. Also, having lots of qualifications to office jobs is really good. Working wouldn’t have to be a problem for me. Never really had a motivation for [..more..]
Feeling down again…
Boredom has filled this girls heart or is it something else? She wants freedom to be honest but what would happen when she finally found that freedom? Escaping from the very life that is there for another one just for a dream. A dream that was made up! A dream that cannot be brought up, [..more..]
Hey Hey…
So just now I found out that life wants me to wait peacefully but I don’t want to… The outside world is just making up reasons to why I don’t want to go. Why go when all your friends aren’t there or when no one is there to have fun? The feeling of loneliness has [..more..]
I don’t know what to do???
Well… I don’t know what the f*** is happening right now but I guess I’m moving? What the hell is a 18 year old supposed to go anyways!? Things like this makes me mad… What a great time for myself to find a place on my own and get a job that is well paid [..more..]
“You have to be an adult!” But I don’t want to!
It’s already the 26th of December 2014… What am I doing? I’m not the person I imagined at all! All my “dreams,” never coming true. The things that I’ve always wanted to do has gone out the window because I have responsibilities! Being a different person could always help me! It always has… But then [..more..]
I want that satisfying feeling!!!
So like, how the hell is a person supposed to feel satisfied when they don’t know what would satisfy them in life? I’ve experienced this so many f***in times that it bothers me! Ughhh! Why the hell am I not satisfied in life every f***in day! Damn it bugs me so f***in much! “Hey Mindy, [..more..]