Posted by Mindy1718 on 2015/01/31 under Uncategorized A new semester could mean a new meaning to what kind of person I would want to be. Who knows what that is? I for sure hell as won’t know crap about what I truly want. For some reason, rejecting a lot of people about decisions is what keeps coming around and around. Learning something that was already learned too many times is really tiring. The constant reminder of the faults in my family’s has been repeated so many times and the constant reminder of having the lectures of NOT to do those mistakes again like they had. The misunderstood person here is me, the same mistakes won’t go to me because there have been a lesson learned. “NO MORE LECTURES FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!” The words repeat in a mind that seems too tired of hearing them. Admiring for them for the thought but the words could be ignored if reminded to much that I might go and do them. Making those people mad until they stop lecturing isn’t so bad but it makes them feel bad. Should they be taught a lesson, I don’t know? There’s a satisfaction feeling but yet there is a bad feeling at the same time. Is the bad feeling better than anger or is the other way around? Only the person would know. I love those people but they can really be a pain in my ass, especially my mother… She is the one person that I cannot get along with all the time. Well, it is what it is! Gotta live my life one day at a time. I go to college and it’s my first semester. The one thought of knowing what you want could always change but sometimes that could be so confusing. I wanted to major in psychology but now, I want to do many things so that I could leave this place here where home is. This place could be suffocating and would be better if there was more things I would want to do. Meeting new people is hard for me, being shy sometimes is really a dumb… It does have its perks at some points though! I want to reach my goal but that only goal is to get a job and leave, leave this place here to find another so that a new life can begin on my own(I will ask for help if I need it but I would like to independent and see the world.). A life could be beautiful yet ugly but I would love to experience it for myself. Wouldn’t that be nice? To start anew and find new friends, new home, new experiences! My only life goal at this point haha. Well, gonna try hard to study to get a good job.