My nightmares keeping me awake
Today was my first panic attack that lasted more than two hours. The multiple stops of going in and out of panic attacks before sleeping due to nightmares is scary. Most people don't know about this about me but since childhood, I could lucid dream to where it feels so real. The fact that I [..more..]
My dream is far away
Growing up in a big complicated family never seems to fix your trauma or your way of thinnking. I grew up in with seven siblings who all got pregnant by the age of 14-19. My mom had me at the same time my siblings had kids so I grew up with all of my nephews [..more..]
Social media or nah?
Dude! Do you think it's weird that I don't go on social media? I have Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and other things but I closed off the world about two years ago. Don't even watch the news. Got too bitter after living with roommates and hated my previous job. Got tired of everything so I wanted [..more..]
Random rambling! HAHA
You know… I expected more out of my life at this age. At the age of 18, the whole plan was to get married, be a mom, have lots of kids, and be happy after high school. I'm 24 years old now, not married or have kids. It's so funny how life works or doesn't [..more..]
I want to get married
I want to get married! I want to get married! I want to get married! God, I sound like some psycho! All I ever wanted when even at a young age was to get married young and have kids. Who knew that being a working adult at 23 would be my life. Being at this [..more..]
It’s been a long time…
I can't remember how long it's been since I've typed in this website. Found it when I was younger in boarding school freshman year. High school always felt as though falling down a black hole would last forever. Thinking back, "I'm gonna do way better after high school!" This was obviously a lie! After high [..more..]
Complaining Time!
There seems to be a sudden urge to write/type something. When I was younger, there writing was something that I always did. Why the sudden change now? When was it that I stopped thinking? So many questions unanswered. I can't remember the time. Did you know that I am a lot happier without thinking about [..more..]
Dude… Needy as F**k
To be honest, I'm kinda bored right now haha. My boyfriend is kinda boring right now too. Sounds dumb but it's true! I am currently listening to BTS while typing. Admitting that you are super needy is never a good feeling! I want to talk a lot, cuddle a lot, make out a lot, laugh [..more..]
I hate being an adult!
I'm not too old but being 21 can have its advantages and disadvantages. One thing that I do love is that I'm still young enough to do stupid things! On the other hand… Being responsible for doing those stupid things can come crawl back to you. Life comes with several consequences! How amazing is that!? [..more..]
Is it a good choice?
So life had recently hit me with a rock. “Oh Mindy! Have you gotten your schedule for this semester of college?” Like, HELL NO! There is no reason to because it’s so damn boring… It’s not a very happy place for me. Liking school/college has always been a problem for me. There was not a [..more..]