What do I do? There's nothing that I can. You say you're getting married.. How should I react. You're an awful person. You invited me over…told me you were getting married…and then you took me to bed.
I'm pathetic. I'd fall over myself for you in a second. Do anything you asked. Including telling you no. I told you to stop. Because that's what you wanted from me. To be a friend not a f***… But then you wouldn't take no for an answer. Breaking down any defense I had the second you held me down and kissed me.
And now what… I'm in love with you. I have been for over ten years. From the first time we spoke. I'm a loyal little puppy…a loyal stupid little puppy who just takes being kicked over and over and still stays.
It hurts.I hate myself. And I don't think I can be fixed.
Sounds like you are being played.