Posted by Mindy1718 on 2015/01/08 under Uncategorized Boredom has filled this girls heart or is it something else? She wants freedom to be honest but what would happen when she finally found that freedom? Escaping from the very life that is there for another one just for a dream. A dream that was made up! A dream that cannot be brought up, she knows that! Why follow a different path when the one she has there is already made? So many questions to why I wonder what that girl is doing. She wants something that is fictional, not real, a life where she couldn’t go so easily. A smile on her face goes about once she day dreams of it. When woken up from her own dream… Reality hits her. She wants to live in her dream forever. No matter what the girl wants to find that one person. Life isn’t simple like those dreams. Wanting to believe in something that isn’t real but just a feeling such as like religions. To have a belief but not knowing if they are truly there, they just have faith and hope that it or they are real. Reality is what this girl tries to avoid but it keeps attacking her. Hit by hit, one at a time or even maybe many times at a time can she be hit with problems. Her parents lack in many ways. Her family has many difficulties but they try to get through it one step at a time. It seems natural now though. A girl who lived with so many things in her way. She never really knew what she wanted until it came to high school. Remembering what was before is hard. As if there was nothing really pleasant to even remember. What was that life before this one? It’s hard to say… Following a mere dream that went to far into fiction. She knows it’s not real… Why still believe in it? Her heart feels faint but yet it’s happy to think of it. Emotions going up and down. Being lonely has been brought to her heart as well. A young adult still believing in fantasies. Well… I guess I’ll just find out what happens when I change my life huh. Haha! It makes me laugh to see what I’ve been doing all my life. Nothing really did happen but yet, lots of things happened. I felt lost so many times and then found so many times. The feeling of being stupid is often thought of. Replacing one person for another is never a good thing, especially when they are very important to you. I really do love that person that it hurts. It could make me cry if I really thought about it. You can’t always get what you want and I know that for a fact because I’ve been hit with that reality constantly. Still to this day does that happen. What a life… I guess I just need someone to talk to. Who knows for sure because I don’t know myself. Well… I’ll just have to find out. Reality is a b**** but I need to get over it.
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I just read your other post. and before I could respond your made this one. I’m sensing that something is bothering you. I can quite get my head fully around it. yes reality on this big blue marble is a pain. So many people have taken to finding their soul mate to comfort them. If you don’t follow your dream what will you do? Just because your a young adult doesn’t mean that you can’t have fantasies. I don’t know what you mean by changing your life.
If you need to cry its ok. Sometimes we just need a moment. It’s perfectly normal. Don’t let yourself get down like this. Come here and talk to me or anyone that is on at the moment so that we can make sure you avoid getting down in the dumps.
I’m here if you need me.
This trivial subject of whether these dreams/fantasies is not what bothers me the most I guess? Well… All I know what I want is to leave the place where I am at now. I don’t have much to talk about to many people around me because they don’t get such thoughts. Some do and some don’t. You could say that my mind changes every so often too. I won’t cry because this girl right here needs to learn of the real world at some times. I forget that I live in that kind of life which makes it harder for me to see. I have lots of good parts of my life but I come on this website to vent so to say. It makes a weight feel lighter you can say. Lots of things still ponder my mind but my goal now is to just leave. Leave this place where my dreams get crushed so often. Well… I thank you for your compliment sir! haha. I have fantasies but they won’t always bring me back to reality. They seem too dangerous now… I wish to move on slowly but things like that take time, I know that very well.