29-03-12(6:35:38)
i feel depressed even when my life is going good, and i dont understand why. Ive been this way since i was about the age of 10. i’ve had a lot of suicidal thought since i was 10 and whats dangerous and i know is that ive even wrote out ways that i can kill [..more..]
19-03-12(2:59:48)
Suicide isnt the answer. You know It isnt and you hurt yourself just enough to send you to the hospital. You know you will be hounded by sorrows and this is what fuels your talkative moods most of the time. Then when you get mad at somebody, you can threaten to do it again and [..more..]
09-03-12(7:10:47)
Missing you like you wouldnt believe… I know you wouldnt believe me because i have not left the situation i am in but that too is so hard… probably scary more than anything… to walk out on all that i have known for the past 24 yrs to upset my children and to hurt the [..more..]
02-03-12(11:12:38)
Just when I think I am on top of my feelings and coping with life everything crashes around me……. Its like all of a sudden i wake up and realize that who i want i will never have and who i have isnt who I want… I feel awful for thinking that let alone writing [..more..]
28-02-12(10:13:54)
Dearest Daniel, It has now been a month since that night,and 3 weeks since you last spoke to me… It has been the worst month of my life and the saddest… Not knowing what to do not knowing how to feel not knowing anything is just killing me….. All that I do know is that [..more..]
06-02-12(1:08:22)
Say “is something the matter?” i have a panick attack, Say “Hey you wanna hang later?” i stare at you and claps to the ground screaming and crying… I Cant talk but i can type. i cant look at anyone without Tearing up and thinking ” Why cant you all see what i see?? Why [..more..]
31-01-12(11:31:48)
what the F have i done….omg i am so confused now…..worse than ever before…5 yrs of waiting and now theres no going back…. it didnt at all work out how i wanted nor where i wanted …..nothing…… i dont even know how i feel anymore……confused isnt the word for it…. what the f have i [..more..]
10-01-12(23:45:49)
why do people hate goths we love music.we breath,have ears,and tow eyes isnt that being human.just cause we weare black does not mean anything just like to stand out and be our selves whats wrong with that.a friend of mine asked me and class and i said i dont know. i guess they dont like [..more..]
20-12-11(19:30:59)
Hey guess what? Ive had sex. Dispite you talking me out of it for months and months, i had sex with him. And guess what? I f**king enjoyed it! And guess what else? We have sex all the time, now that you have broken up with your boyfirend, i have had more sex that you [..more..]
08-12-11(10:17:10)
Today, i lost my bestfriend of 11 years. She has decided to move to Balina, with her boyfriend. Am i suppose to be happy for her, smile and fight my tears back as she leaves her family, her friends and i behind. Am i suppose to forget the fact that she has been apart of [..more..]