unwilling to live, afraid to die
why do I bother, theres no use. I lost everything. my family tests me like an orphan, and I lost the love of my life. how does anyone bounce back. I’ve done everything in my power to try to keep my sanity. it’s hard being a sheep in a home full of wolves. especially when [..more..]
Why me.
Sometimes I think to myself why am I even here, you know? Through my whole entire life I’ve been bullied. I think to myself, is it because I’m ugly? Am I not popular like the stupid ignorant people? Do I have to become one of them? Yea I know that I shouldn’t be a follower, [..more..]
Who/What/Why even am I? Because I don’t know anymore.
It’s a pretty tricky question: I’m confused, questioning, unsure, maybe even suppressing what I know for a fact is the answer. So I’ll lay it all out linearly, treat it like a math problem with posits and proofs and only one right answer… First question: what even am I? 1. Gender and sex are different. [..more..]
Its not easy being a kid
Sometimes I feel really stressed. Other times I just feel like screaming. Adults just don’t understand how hard being a kid is. I feel so stressed,trapped, and alone.
No title.
Actually I think I have the power to make things better, to change my life, but there’s always something that brings me down again, something that makes me think about stopping it right now, with life. I am really scared about living, about being literally inside life, breathing with it, loving, laughing. I am scared [..more..]
Not knowing and well known
I’m a 15 years old Chicana confused of life; not knowing exactly where life is taking me but I’m ready for what’s to come, or am I? I don’t know, this whole being alive thing is complicated. It sort of reminds me of seeing a woman pregnant who has nothing to prepared for the upcoming [..more..]
Admiration
I used to waste my time looking at how other ppl live their lives. I later realized it was a waste of time it’s not about how I can match up with these ppl but how I choose to spend my time. I was certainly the guy who never got the girl…to this day. Before [..more..]
07-05-12(9:05:54)
Lately I’ve had no willpower, motivation, and no confidence to keep moving on with my life.. I really just want to feel like a normal human being again.. I’m still waiting for the day where I can truly feel happy with my life again..
15-04-12(11:44:59)
Again you are not messaging me back… Daniel you cant keep doing this to me I cant keep doing it to myself…I have so much to deal with at the moment..More than my head can cope with…Its 6 days till our 5 yr anniversary… Well 5 yrs since we first met… A night i shall [..more..]
15-04-12(11:44:20)
Again you are not messaging me back… Daniel you cant keep doing this to me I cant keep doing it to myself…I have so much to deal with at the moment..More than my head can cope with…Its 6 days till our 5 yr anniversary… Well 5 yrs since we first met… A night i shall [..more..]