all my friends are gone.
i really just needed somewhere i could write and release some feeling and whats going on in my life. im 14 and i have an extremely troubled past.in my 14 years of life i have experienced what some people never have to deal with. i have come face to face with abuse, sexual violence, abandonment, [..more..]
Worthless
I’m just so sick of being treated like I don’t matter. I’m good enough to sleep with but not good enough for a real relationship? It’s a Lonely existence when no one wants you for anything more than sex. Just a hole to be filled I guess.
i love you
i loved you with all my heart but you really didnt love me, everyone said you were a dose an im starting to think they are write i hope you no what i did to myself-having desroyed my own body- im left with so many scars because i loved you so much i dont even [..more..]
I never thought this would be how I feel.
I never thought that I would be so angry with my sister that I am disgusted by her presence. She has been seeing this guy, who is awful for her. He’s only 16 and is a flunking pothead drunk, whose parents are crackheads. Literally. The reason she knows him is because he is our cousin [..more..]
stupid boys.
theres this boy.. i’ve liked him since the minute i’ve met him. ive tried to get over him. i’ve tried over and over again. i cannot stop loving him. i don’t want to see him with anyone else. ever. expecally in front of me. and now theres this new girl getting hired at our work [..more..]
Autism
Autism, Its What Got In My 6 Years Old Sister She 6 Years And She Don’t Speak Also .. People Look At Her Like She Were Some Kind Of a Burden , i Was In The Mall a Man With His Son Have a Autism Look’d At My Sister With a Wired Look Do You [..more..]
Today.
Today i don’t feel very good. My mind has just been racing, spinning and crashing. i didn’t go to work today but i don’t want to be home. I cannot think of a single place i want to be. I like being home, or at my parents, or my friend’s place. but i just want [..more..]
Analogy For My Life
Like a failing rocket ship My life without a friend Spinning whirling nauseously Praying for the end I feel like I’m an alien Doomed to walk the earth Never to stop searching To try to find it’s worth
I don’t have anyone anymore.
Where do I start? I’m a closeted gay boy, and I met this guy online a few years ago, not knowing that he would have such an impact on my life. He lived close, but too far away to visit very often. We basically became bff’s or what we called gay best friends. And sometimes, [..more..]
losing it
My dread is getting worse by the day. I feel like I’m watching a movie of my own life. why can’t I gain control back? –Lost.