Long time
It has been a long time since I have a had a natural smile on my face. During the last 3 years I can count the number of times that I have actually been happy, and it’s no more than twice. And both times, it has been due to you. You make me so happy [..more..]
:(
I just wish I was happy. All my friends are off at state colleges and universities having the time of their lives and I’m stuck at home at a community college with barely any friends, a recent terrible break-up where I’m constantly hearing about him and around him. He was so terrible to me yet [..more..]
Sorry
I’m sorry for not being the best looking guy. I’m sorry for not fitting in school. I feel sad i don’t know who or what to tell about my feelings. I have no true friends. Does anybody care?! I go to school and people treat me like trash cause i don’t hang out with the [..more..]
Break up
Going through a tough break up is really starting to take a tole on my self image. I find myself constantly comparing myself to the new girls in his life and the old ones and its tearing down my self confidence, self esteem, and my mood daily. I just wish I had someone to remind [..more..]
Strange
Just now realizing. The few people who would actually consider having sex with me are all with someone or married. Sucks.
Accepting change to follow your dreams.
Anybody who knows me intimately knows that especially when i was younger i was very much about home. I liked things where they were and the way they were. Because i was happy there, and i knew it was safe and that i or anybody else i knew could get hurt there. The threat of [..more..]
loner
it’s not that i want to move away bc of all the gossip, i want to move because i want a friend. i’m tired of being a loner. i dont mind having my sister as my friend n going out with her friends but i want my own friends to turn to. Theres this guy [..more..]
I’m a Ghost To You
In school I’m called emotionless. I don’t look happy or look sad. All you see is a blank expression on my face with no emotion. But I can’t help it. Everyone at my school is so obnoxious and annoying. I only get along with one other person. Sometimes I wonder if anybody will understand me. [..more..]
Dad
Dad, I love you and I’d never replace you. But there are some things you do that can really push me out of line. The fact that you treat your step-daughter like she’s not even there is bad enough, but you only care about yourself and want to impress other people. You are selfish, uncaring, [..more..]
My Anxiety.
I hate school so much that gives me a knot in my stomach, a hatred look in my eyes, and the ability to not sleep, no matter how tired I get. I really can’t stand the people, the teachers, the classes. Sure, it is a nice school and I am blessed for being given the [..more..]