Terrible
God i am just terrible with friends i mean im not mean or anything its just that when it comes to making friends im the number one loser and my feelings i have a hard time talking about my feelings i mean how can you let a guy who kisses you goooooo im a f**king [..more..]
new begining !!
hey you!! that is the last time i will look for you, i will go this time and find my own way, i wont look for you or remember, cause u will always be this deceitful memory.
Done.
So since April I’ve been housebound. Completely stuck in my own home. Afraid to go out, and every time I did, I would panic and go right back. I got withdrawn from my school, I’m so far behind with my own life. And I have dreams. Dreams of going to New York when I’m 18 [..more..]
Why still I’m not happy?
Why I’m still not happy, i have a friend, i have someone to love me, but not sure if they love me back, but I don’t really care, because we already best friends, but why I’m still not happy.. there is something missing in my life I don’t know what it is.. i spend my [..more..]
If only someone knew me…
I’ve grown to hate living since I was nine. My parents had always fought, but when they actually decided to get divorced was when I noticed it most. My step-dad (which I felt was like my biological dad since he had been raising me along with my mom since I was four) abandoned me along [..more..]
WHY NOT ME???…
All these boys say who i don’t have a gf or why not me…. am i not perfect for you?? Well I feel like I am all alone… I get boys saying wow your beautiful!!!…but none of them get the guts to talk or ask me out… one other thing is that yeah i am [..more..]
Making me feel unworthy
Idk anymore…my best friend…I think she thinks im annoying..and she grew tired of me..witch its fine by me..i just idk..i sont want to live int his universe anymore..stupid people..stupid thoughts..stupied not understanding…i cant find anyone…worth spending time on..
messed up
Ahh I hate this feeling, a guy tells you he loves you, you reject him. Then time later you see him and all these feelings start coming up again, he is flirting with others and has obviously moved on and it kills you. You just wish you could go back and give him a chance. [..more..]
?
so many time where you need to take on a personal in order to adapt to certain situation, i feel like for the 19 yrs i have been wearing a mask in order to pleased other. it got to a point where i don’t know who i am anymore 🙁 and sometimes i just don’t [..more..]
No point trying
I tried really hard all the time to be friends with someone I really care about. However, it all seems like a one way street and it seems like the only thing I can do is to let go and forget.