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Posted by on 2012/08/30 under Uncategorized

So since April I’ve been housebound. Completely stuck in my own home. Afraid to go out, and every time I did, I would panic and go right back. I got withdrawn from my school, I’m so far behind with my own life. And I have dreams. Dreams of going to New York when I’m 18 and becoming a writer or something. I have big huge dreams that I know I will fulfill. I just delayed that with this bulls*** of being stuck in my house. And why have I been stuck? Some dumb boy I ruined myself over.

I can’t take this anymore. I’m ready to start pushing forward. I want to be in school and I want to be around people and be hugged and kissed and loved. I don’t want to be just me anymore, and I’m not going to do that. This isn’t working. My life is so much more than this. I am so much more than this. And I can do this. I can go out early in the morning and come home late at night, be able to take off my shoes and smell my own house and go straight to bed without showering and following a routine because that’s life. That’s what my life used to be. I’m going to live my life again. And I don’t need ANYONE to make me happy, because I know I can do it on my own. I’m going to start living for me.

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