Just you and I, and how you make me feel
You see, this started a while ago. And even than you had me the way you do now. You consume my thoughts more than you should; more than you know. I’m not sure what you call this. What we are. What it will become. Or even if you see everything in the same light. I [..more..]
I cut myself today
I got out of school, looking for her. She wasnt there, Had no way to contact her. So i took the bus, When i got home i was there for 15 minutes, and then she came she was home. My mom had walked through that door immediately, Screaming an yelling at me…..Im a f*** up……Why [..more..]
confusing love..
there are so many problems in my life,i feel alone . i had a boyfriend that always had me smiling & laughing. he was like my strength <3 i was inlove but then we got to busy for eachother , we only got to see echother on the weekend ); & i guess you can [..more..]
Is My Life Even Worth It?!!
Seems like all I did since birth was get beat down by people and I been struggling to fight against this wave of hate and all these years i have indeed found the strength to pull through till now…this was my only chance and I somehow blew it.I was not what u call a cute [..more..]
confusing love
why i am so confused, i don’t understand or i don’t want to understand that you are with him and not me. i always saw feelings for me in your eyes or it was just hallucinations of mine. Don’t know that. But one thing i know for sure that i like you very much and [..more..]
No Point
What is the point to all of this? To life? I work a job I absolutely hate, surrounded by people who all think i’m a horrible embarrassing burden and I can’t find the strength to even move anymore. I’ve lost the will to care about anything. Everything i’ve enjoyed in the past just seems so [..more..]
Imperfections
Every day I hide them. Only pregnant women are supposed to have stretch marks. Not slightly overweight teenagers. I keep thinking that if I were 20 pounds lighter that I would fall in love. That some guy would sweep me off my feet. My heart is screaming at me as I type this. It is [..more..]
She killed herself.
She killed herself. With a bullet. I didn’t really know her, but I think we may have met. I am supposed to be painting her portrait. But, I’m not… I’m not doing anything. I am an artist. Unmotivated, but skilled. I am a mother. Unmotivated, but loving. I am a girlfriend, and when you’re not [..more..]
15-04-12(11:44:59)
Again you are not messaging me back… Daniel you cant keep doing this to me I cant keep doing it to myself…I have so much to deal with at the moment..More than my head can cope with…Its 6 days till our 5 yr anniversary… Well 5 yrs since we first met… A night i shall [..more..]
15-04-12(11:44:20)
Again you are not messaging me back… Daniel you cant keep doing this to me I cant keep doing it to myself…I have so much to deal with at the moment..More than my head can cope with…Its 6 days till our 5 yr anniversary… Well 5 yrs since we first met… A night i shall [..more..]