i feel like someone else is living my life. HELP
sometimes i forget that this is my life you know? I feel dead, but breathing. So lifeless, because I have been doing nothing so far in my life. You just won’t understand if it hasn’t happened to you. But I want adventure. I want to be able to show my feelings without being embarrassed. I [..more..]
SCHOOL ANXIETY
I have horrible worries about school. Tomorrow is my first day back after a really long and happy Christmas break. I just feel sick about the whole thing. I hate school more than anything in the entire world. My stomach gets really upset, I get horrible head aches. And I really don’t stop crying. I [..more..]
My Love Story WIth Connor
I woke in the dark with the shadow of a man above me. I could feel his hand on my leg, I didn’t know his but I knew that he was trying to know me. I started screaming but his moved one of his hands over my mouth. I tried to fight but he was [..more..]
I STILL LOVE YOU
I am seventeen years old. And last week, my boyfriend Logan and I decided to have sex for the very first time. He is seventeen too, and I love him very much. I made the whole thing very romantic and put rose petals on the sheets and lit candles. And well, we did it. Afterwords, [..more..]
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All I wanna do is go round his house but my mums worried something will happen between us… I mean, it could but I wouldn’t allow anything to happen because I don’t like that sort of stuff. I know where she’s coming from in that I haven’t exacly spoken about this guy in front of [..more..]
Afraid To Live
I feel like I am dead but living. If that makes any sense at all. I am sort of just here. I exist, but do not live. And I understand that it is my choice, but I feel like I don’t know how to live. I only have a couple boring friends. And I think [..more..]
I Am Afraid Of My Own Shadow
I am so shy. Like, beyond shy. Whenever I am with my friends, I sort of blend in the walls as if they do not notice me. If I say anything, they do not even answer me. The boys used to like me, but now I am too scared to even look at them because [..more..]
come back
i used to look at people who fell in love and admire them. i would try and figure out how its done. how the process begins. if there was a pattern of some sort, or a warning sign that it was happening. its really just all about how you feel. feelings. thoughts. actions. theres so [..more..]
Not knowing and well known
I’m a 15 years old Chicana confused of life; not knowing exactly where life is taking me but I’m ready for what’s to come, or am I? I don’t know, this whole being alive thing is complicated. It sort of reminds me of seeing a woman pregnant who has nothing to prepared for the upcoming [..more..]
She killed herself.
She killed herself. With a bullet. I didn’t really know her, but I think we may have met. I am supposed to be painting her portrait. But, I’m not… I’m not doing anything. I am an artist. Unmotivated, but skilled. I am a mother. Unmotivated, but loving. I am a girlfriend, and when you’re not [..more..]