Down, Unsure. Feeling a few emotions
I am not doing so well today. I’m feeling very unsure of myself and what is happening in my life. I’m sad. I just can’t seem to find a happy comfortable medium with where I am and what I’m doing. When do things get easier? How do I take that first step to figure out [..more..]
I don’t even know.
I am just having really s***ty week. Today has been the cherry on top, not because anything bad happened, it has just been one of those days where I have too much time to think. I have no motivation. I feel so burnt out. I am just wondering when my pushing myself will pay off. [..more..]
On these black tiled
As i cut myself, knowing that ill bleed. I feel some sense or relief. For This red hot blood, pulses irraticly. It rushes and pounds against the walls of my brain. Stop! Let silence consume me. Time can move forward.. I have no business there. In a bright world of stark reality and pain. As [..more..]
Getting back on track
It is easy to say motivating and encouraging stuff about picking up on life. Sorry if I’m being cynical, but as I read some of the attempts by the users to cheer us up, it doesn’t really resonate with me. These concepts about optimism and stuff just feel so… distant and detached. When one hits [..more..]
Will it get better?
When will it get better? People say that life gets better in time.. but does it really? Does life really get better in time? I mean we look older, we are getting older, our backs hurt more, our feet hurt more etc How is that better?.. Maybe i’m looking it at a ignorant way but [..more..]
loss of purpouse
What is the point in anything? I’ve lost all sense of purpouse…
How long????
How long should a person stay with someone when they have all the feelings that they are cheating? I’m frustrated that we have started our family, pregnant again with the fifth one and had a wedding scheduled for this year. You feel as though you don’t have to call when you choose to go out [..more..]
Forgive and forget
I have forgiven you (for what, I don’t know.) and forgotten. Let go back to being friends again because all those years being by each others sides is too much to sacrifice for a life time of being your friend. That didn’t make sense but you know what I mean 🙂
Family Outcast
I can’t handle being in my family anymore! it’s becoming way to stressful and it just keeps getting worse as I get older. When I was young I was like the princess of the house, always making jokes and making everyone smile and now I can’t even talk to my Mam or Dad without fighting [..more..]
15-06-12(14:35:06)
It’s been a while and I simply cannot forget her. All the memories are still here. I have tried to go on but I end up doing the same, there’s no day where I don’t think of her smile, her kisses, her warmth, her hands. All the beautiful moments we shared. Everywhere I go, I [..more..]