01-04-12(5:59:39)
i am a physician in one of the harvard hospitals. that said, it is distressing how the “elitist” care system works. the sense of entitlement and constant need for sympathy is distasteful. yet, what is worse, is how the hospital is structured and run by non-doctors, whose primary goal is to increase income. it’s time [..more..]
14-03-12(7:47:19)
BLINK YOUR EYES to deny the truth XXXXXXXXXXX that I have so much for you so MAKE UP MORE LIES to forget your oath XXXXXXXXXX thinking I dont know what’s true Now CLOSE YOUR EYES if all we had been through XXXXXXXXX does not make sense to you & I’ll PRETEND SURPRISE for the love [..more..]
02-03-12(1:57:45)
I hate it how things are so different. I want it the way it used to be. You and me. I love the way you looked into my eyes. I miss that. Last night when i talked to you, it was like old times. When you said you had to go, I said goodbye, You [..more..]
27-02-12(23:07:33)
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. Nothing makes sense and I can’t understand why. It’s easy, but it’s hard, I can’t deal with the mixed emotions and signals. I don’t belong with my family, a stranger, and outsider, fits in better than me. She gets strait A’s, shes super smart and they get exited. [..more..]
09-02-12(7:09:29)
“Write where it hurts” It’s been so long since I enjoyed life, I can’t even recall it to tell you what it feels like to enjoy it. Whenever I am asked to recall a good memory, there is an overwhelming sense of emptiness. I have no memory that is, as they put it, happy. At [..more..]
26-11-11(20:59:05)
going away next weekend for a girls weekend away….. so cant wait…. but i am taking your parents address with me and i am going to get you a present and send to you…. Dont know what but i hope you like it…. Was going to buy you clothes but dont know your size and [..more..]
04-08-11(23:11:28)
Hello internet. I wonder if anyone will read this (but obviously on some level I hope that someone will, since otherwise I would just have written this into a Word document and deleted it. I would apologise for boring the hypothetical reader with my rubbish, but what? No-one’s getting forced to read it.)…. What I [..more..]
It’s your favourite hobby and past time but I don’t share it. You want to go out with her to do it. It makes sense, you both like the same thing. But I hate the fact that it was going to be just you two. So you add on another girl. She doesn’t partake in [..more..]
Can you feel it? I know I can. The sense of ultimate exhaustion. Generally being tired and depraved of energy? A great example is being bored during summer vacation or something of that nature but simply being too tired to do something. You know you can’t just lay in bed, but your mind implores you [..more..]