Well, I’m a complete fool.
I thought to myself, “Be forward, but not too forward enough to make him uncomfortable. Start off small with short conversations and go on from there.” Well, I’m stupid and didn’t even consider that if he was truly interested in me, he would also put more effort to start conversations with me, both face-to-face and [..more..]
stay
it always starts with my most loved ones. they all end up leaving me. it hurts. no one sees anything in me worth staying for. i always wonder if there is someone there that will stay. someone that i think is just as great. the most recent one i’ve been loosing is my best friend. [..more..]
Fixing a Depression
I am having a hard time dealing with the whole “friend” situation. I graduated from high school about 2 years ago and in high school, I had a huge main group of friends. We were always going out doing things together, getting dressed up for football games together, you name it. After I graduated high [..more..]
getting nowhere
Why I have to lose always or been the last…. I put all my effort and seems im not getting nowhere.. Other people made it look easier…
My inner thoughts.
Is it wierd to feel like your drifting away from everyone and everything you loved? I put in all the effort and yet I find myself being a back-up friend, maybe my social skills just aren’t up to scratch, I mean my father is an alchoholic who came home every weekend drunk and I couldn’t [..more..]
03-05-12(22:19:37)
my friends can be so apathetic sometimes. they just go on without consideration for me most of the time when it comes down to stuff like making plans and it’s annoying, really. They’re cool when we hang out at school and stuff, but they just need to make more of an effort outside of that.
11-04-12(4:29:22)
She ruined everything! I worked hard to get where I was, so much time, so much effort. And with one click of the button, she f***ing ruined everything! I told her that she wasn’t allowed to touch it, but then she just grabbed it when I wan’t looking and ruined everything! Sure, she said she [..more..]
20-01-12(19:38:24)
You ever get that feeling where you have so much happening in your head, but it’s impossible to put into words? You get confused, annoyed with yourself, you feel so sad but you don’t know exactly why. Yes i’m here, and your far away, with all the other people i miss and love. But what [..more..]
25-12-11(15:28:40)
Every single Christmas.. I come home, I put in some effort no matter how little cash I have. I get presents for the family etc and I even get a little excited in the run up to Christmas Day. Then I get home Christmas Eve and it’s great. I’m happy to be here, everyone is [..more..]
15-10-11(4:24:27)
i really like someone, but it seems like her feelings aren’t reciprocal. there’s no effort involved…