Hardest decision of my young life.
Im a dancer. You know the one one with the vertical pole? yea thats me…i been working for about four years and from what everybody says is im damn good. I dont think im at my best and full potential so…..back on subject i also have this boyfriend ive been dating for a little over [..more..]
Purpose
I haven’t exactly been through the majority of my life yet, but it seems to me that there is a definitive ground between the just and the unjust. The grounds in between is every so small but at the exact same time and through a grand broadcast of people ever changing. Does that mean that [..more..]
ugh but I hate feeling like that…
Mark hack is annoying. He needs to know there is more than one right answer, not just his. I need to step back when I read his stuff.
Who/What/Why even am I? Because I don’t know anymore.
It’s a pretty tricky question: I’m confused, questioning, unsure, maybe even suppressing what I know for a fact is the answer. So I’ll lay it all out linearly, treat it like a math problem with posits and proofs and only one right answer… First question: what even am I? 1. Gender and sex are different. [..more..]
Change
I’ve been friends with my best friend for 5 years now, and things have changed, she’s changed. I know that things never stay the same but she’s turned into a different person. She’s depressed and she cuts but I have no idea why. I’m not the best at talking about personal things so I haven’t [..more..]
socially disfunctional
i’m socially disfunctional. so is my wife. ack. oxymoron. if i’m socially inept, how can i be married. easy. that’s actually the answer. it’s easier to be married than not to be. yeah. that pretty much defines my social disfunction. i have a real hard time with introductions. i cannot initiate a conversation. i’m fully [..more..]
love is hard
damn love is not easy…its going to take a while for me to understand.this girl is just like my other half. i think i love her but i have a feeling i can trust her. i asked my dad and he said i was just to young to understand what love is so i move [..more..]
Love In The Air
Today my day was okay or maybe perfect. I asked out the guy I like. He said he would give me the answer tomorrow. I am so exited but I did not get that I made the move instead of him. I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach. I never felt so nervous [..more..]
Akamai loa (very smart)
Feels like every time I try to add my thoughts into something they make me feel so negative. They ask for my help and I give them help but its like they don’t really appreciate my answer. Hey if you didn’t want my help in the first place then don’t ask me! I’m just trying [..more..]
Glue
I think I am stuck in the wrong place. I know I made the right decision with my career but I am not so sure about the college. The College I am in is not the right place for me. What scares me more is that I am stuck and there is no way to [..more..]