erghhh.. i really missing to have a boyfriend….

erghhh.. i really missing to have a boyfriend. seriously! i watch some couple drove in front of me and i start crying inside. F*** IT!. even worst, people always come by me and tell about their bloody relationship. i know some are not really going well. some are madly in love! f*** it. and there’s [..more..]

Have you ever felt so lonely but you know why. Sometimes I just want to cry. I want to be set free. I Only seem to upset the ones I love. how can you appreciate what you have if you not happy and That’s the one thing you want.

I go away on Tuesday… a whole 5 nights in melbourne on my own …. well not entirely on my own … staying with my best friend over there… I messaged you and asked you to come over for the day or a night… I know you wont but hey what a dream if you [..more..]

I don’t want to break up… why can’t you just stay with me when I leave… a part of me wants to just end it now so it doesn’t hurt so bad when I do leave…

Oh my sweet gorgeous boy, I can not go a day without thinking about you… wishing and hoping that we could be together.. Its the same old wish all the time but one I never tire of…. Why is that because I so desperately want to be with you.. I dont know if you and [..more..]

death is so scary. i always think im dying. im only 20 i should not have so many little medical problems. i shouldnt feel this way. i should feel strong. are these symtums of something major ive been missing i dont know. i think im dying slowly but im to afraid to tell anyone they [..more..]

you kill my baby you and your friends why did you let him play with a gun a gun!!!!!!!!!! and people want to know why i kill you people thats right i am in jall that didnt bring my baby back i dont feel happy but now you know how to play with a gun [..more..]

i will kill you if you hit my baby one more time and if you hit me you will be died mot by me my 4 brothers go away i dont love you i never did i just needed the money for your kid and minethe money you give me is not for me for [..more..]

For so long now ive been past this notion that love might exist, he crushed my heart and dragged it upon the ground, for years i layed silent waiting for things to get better until i just stopped believing. it was a dark night i sat outside smoking and i saw you you were like [..more..]

these feeling i portray. sometimes i wounder are they real. they feel so forced and but still i feel repressed. am i capable of these emotions that come so freely to others. Im not entirely sure of anything. i stopped believing today. real things never end. like the world, energy or change. and everything ends [..more..]