What am i suppose to do when…?
what am i suppose to do, when everyday the thought of killing myself passes through my mind, when i begin to cut myself just to see how much it will bleed, when I’m a popular girl at school but i feel like everyone hates me, when I’m constantly surrounded by a sea of people, and [..more..]
Love is only a four letter word
Love is only a four letter word. So why am I getting hung up on the notion that one plus one equals happy? I have spent a good deal of time alone. Time thinking and analyzing the very thought of love. Saying I love you essentially means nothing but we idealize the notion that love [..more..]
No understands!
People tend to think i’m a b****. But that’s okay, I know i am. I know i’m not perfect, but my family, on the other hand thinks I care only about myself. I try not to be, it’s jut how much can you bear with your sister always calling you a c***, b****, doesn’t love [..more..]
Dear, who i wish could hear this.
Dear, who I wish could hear this. There is so much i wish to tell you, But I know i never can. It would ruin so many things, that i have no right ruining. I have thought about telling so many times But there is so many different ways everything can go wrong.There is Absolutely [..more..]
it isn’t fair.
you piss me off so much. why is it okay for you to just leave and not tell me when you’ll be back? I know you’re okay because you’re talking to her. am I just not worth speaking to? am I not interesting enough anymore? do you not miss me like I miss you? just [..more..]
It’s like drowning but you can still hear everyone around you.
it’s not as if i want to kill myself, exactly… i just want to stop existing. i never chose to live. i did not have a say in that. and for that reason, i feel life is very unfair. the future does not excite me. i have nothing to look forward to. this is as [..more..]
Girls can get blue balls too.
My boyfriend will only make love to me when he wants it. I can’t choose when I want it. It really just pisses me off.
felt I had to type it
I don’t know why, but I felt I had to type this. I really hope god is with my brother today, please, please let him get into MIT. I know he is the perfect candidate. I have seen the effort, sweat and yeah even blood that he has put into this and I would hate [..more..]
Life isn’t fair
I’m only 16 and I’ve been worrying about my family since forever. It’s not fun to be responsible at a young age, and I really can’t be happy or do anything without remembering the problems my mother, my sisters, my brother and my friends are going through. I need to escape but I can’t seem [..more..]
sad
my boyfriend is falling out of love with me. we’re in our twenties and he’s never had sex with anyone else. he says he loves but wants to try being single for a while to see if were meant to be together forever. i completely understand this…but it still breaks my heart. it hurts so [..more..]