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I strongly hope you never see this. I hope you never know how strongly I feel about you. Our stupid, stupid 1 am conversations that mean nothing at all yet everything at once. I hope you never find out how many hours I sat and thought about you. How often I worried I’m not good [..more..]
something to do
I keep on thinking if there is something that I really want to do with my time, my life and if I will choose the right thing. there are all these sites and questions online that say it will help find something to do but it all starts out with clear your mind and ask [..more..]
Sleep deprived mumbling and thoughts..
feelings suck but not feeling sucks too, emptiness to say the least is weird and draining. but there is no middle ground or I am unable to find it and I can’t choose between those two extremes I dont know if it’s even within my power but I try and I try and when I [..more..]
Thinking too much
I lay here thinking more and more as the days go past the years roll by what could of been what could be but I never seem to be able to find an answer. Have I lost the love of my life or will I ever find that person that loves me for me? Will [..more..]
Soft spot, weak spot
You are so successful in many things you do. If you have any obvious weakness, I guess it’s me. Because our tasks are so interconnected. You enemy would try to drag you down by first attacking me. I’m sorry that this happens all the time. I know it’s not my fault, it’s their fault. But [..more..]
I want to talk.
I keep realizing my fear of forming any form of close relationships. No, even telling someone something about myself frightens me.I come off as a very open and outgoing person, but really, I’ve become afraid of deep friendships. Of deep conversations. I hate small talk, but it seems that is all I can do for [..more..]
Will be alright~
Sorrow will fade….love will fade…broken heart will slowly heal… I will be alright soon~ I will be…. I will be alright
Have everything but……
hard work is the key to get anything…… i know it… i gave my 100%…… and m successful in professional career.. but even after give more than i have i couldn’t win her heart….. always try to make her happy…. but couldn’t make her to fall in love with me…. its been 2 years all [..more..]
Meaningless life
If it wasn’t for my parents and dog, i would have killed myself a long time ago. I guess I have a problem in myself, which i cannot quite comprehend, but all the “friends” that i have are not really true friends. I realize i have never had real friends, people just don’t like me [..more..]
bored
okay I accidentally deleted this the first time but whatever. well it’s currently 4am and Im really bored. my arm is swollen and I hurts. I told my mom and she told me to go to sleep and it will get better. but I can’t sleep bc it hurts. today I woke up at 2 [..more..]