get rid of me
it hurts so much being alone, im tired of loving only me… i hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;( somebody please destroy my entire existence, i dont know why i am here.
forgetting what i want
why wont you look at me? why am i not good enough? i am handsome, but you dont beleive me. maybe on the outside i am not perfect, but i swear i have a pure heart. you say you wish you’d find somebody perfect, but i am still alone. i wish i could taste your [..more..]
i am a fool.
i am not worth her. i belong to nobody. i love her, she loves somebody else. she cries for him, i cry for her. she hates him, i love her. she knows, but im ugly. im not worth it. im not good enough. yet here i am, writing about her and much i wish i [..more..]
Freedom thoughts
As I sit here at my desk, constantly cycling through Facebook, checking my phone, looking at my instagram feed with “I can’t make you love me” by Bon Iver play, resisting the temptation to look through the old photos of my past. I realise something, its the something that I don’t have it all together, [..more..]
for lack of space
Something was drifting, suspended by invisible wires, spinning and falling and floating. It had been drifting for some time and then not, and then for a forever before that; it had drifted, and then everything pushed around it and it became part of something bigger, and then the sky had opened up and it had [..more..]
I’m lost.
I’m not certain it was love, but it was something. I care about you so much and you just f***ing threw me away like nothing. I wanted to be with you more than anything. I turned down 4 guys to be with you. I wasted so much time trying to be all you wanted. F*** [..more..]
A dumb poem based on snapchat..what a time to be alive
to see snapshots of your mundane and beautiful life And to hope that someday I might be a part. Curled on a chair in the back of a frame, focus elsewhere. Merely a part of a fleeting image, But a part of a whole.
Protect
You are always protecting me. I feel both happy and sad because of this. Above all, I feel lucky. Thanks. I don’t know how to repay you. Or if it’s even appropriate.
wtf man
So he acts weird the day before because he was scared cuz of his grades. fine. we made up sorta and he told me he missed me and was gona call last night and he said he’s gona buy me lunch monday. i fell asleep waiting for him to call last night. i asked when [..more..]
It Should Work
This isn’t gonna be something about how I’m depressed or anything. Because I’m not. I have the best friends in the world, and I would never take them for granted. This is something else. I’ve had this happen a lot. Where something should work out. Everything is perfect. And yes, this is about girls. But [..more..]