31-08-11(1:10:08)
I so want to be independent, i want to just take off and shoot up into space and leave this prison i call home. Like if this was thr future and they were recruiting young people to go out and travel away from home for 3 months like a voyage into thw stars type adventure [..more..]
29-08-11(7:27:01)
what have i done, i have f***ed everything up with you and i wish i couldve been better. i have another chance with you but its hard to prove everything to you when i dont even think you believe in me. and i want to show you how amazing you are. i want to finally [..more..]
29-08-11(5:31:49)
I can’t forget. It’s been two years. You were mean and controlling. You always made me feel bad, be the one to say I’m sorry. But it was like.. we had so much in common..I was..still am so attracted to you. I don’t know why. I’m just using him. I hate to be alone. and [..more..]
25-08-11(21:21:41)
Write your thoughts/feelings here… panding my horizon of thought through conceptual thinking: Hyperspace The best book I’ve read since high school started must be “Hyperspace” by Michio Kaku, besides the TaoTeChing. In Hyperspace, Kaku explains Quantum theory, why it is incomplete, and why the ten dimensional theory of Hyperspace is the theory deserving more scientific [..more..]
25-08-11(10:05:22)
i feel so angry at myself. i tell lies to everyone and i can’t open up. how am i going to live my life if i’m just going to isolate myself from the worl around me? at the same time though, i don’t know what to tell the others. i’m really not okay, should i [..more..]
25-08-11(4:31:37)
even though we never really dated, even though you never kissed me, even though I didn’t really believe in what you told me.. I miss you. so much. I miss those times we were together, I miss those times when people thought we were going out. I miss you so much Damon… Im glad I [..more..]
24-08-11(12:27:56)
Is this a case of here we go again or what….. I have just tried to write a farewell note to you but with no hope… I cant say goodbye i dont want to say goodbye…..I love you Daniel always have always will…
24-08-11(9:57:36)
Dear Ken, You have no idea how happy you once made me. How much you could make me laugh. For a while I even thought “Hey, here is one person who won’t tire you out. Not like the others, the ‘squad’ members who just left you in the dirt.” It’s not that I’m being smothered, [..more..]
24-08-11(9:43:06)
I want to die. And not in an overdramatic 17 year old girl kind of way. I’m not going to act on it. I never will. I’m definitely not gutsy enough. Today I did something that was my personal equivalent of coming out, and it definitely did not feel good, and afterwards all I really [..more..]
24-08-11(4:08:47)
I thought at 21 years old, I’d stop feeling like a little helpless kid. Laying here with tears in my eyes because I can’t take away my mothers pain. I want to be the one thing in her life that doesn’t bring her any stress, but I can’t even do that right. I will push [..more..]