Only in a Dream
I question my faith as I look up above, reaching with outstretched arms expecting another shove. I’m losing all my care from losing all I loved and no amount of time can heal the hurt that has been done.I remember now the way she use to look at me and the pain in her eyes [..more..]
I KEEP TRYING
I am a chubby girl ok? A little bit big around the edges. And I was okay with that until I started high school this year. And everyone looked at me weird. And the guys make fun of me whenever I walk into class. And now… I want to starve myself. I want to cut [..more..]
strange feeling of me
have you ever been to a place where you feel you belong to that place. the wind, the pressure, the smell are welcoming you. they act like they have known you for years, they have known you more than you know about yourself and they act like they know what do you feel deep inside. [..more..]
BIG FAT FAIL
I am the kind of person that wants good grades but does not want to have to study because I lose all patience. I have nightmares about school. I sweat about it. My stomach literally gets sick about it. I get to the point where I actually throw up due to the stress sometimes. I [..more..]
My Parents are stupid
I have a Boyfriend and I told my mam and she was all….oh do you know anything about him, NO MAM HE’S A F***ING STRANGER I PICKED OUT IN THE STREET, WHAT DOES SHE THINK? I haven’t told my Dad because he’d flip and it’s so stressful, they put too much pressure on me, I’m [..more..]
Made a mistake
Made a huge mistake. Got a new job, under a lot of pressure, have way too big of a target and I succumbed to it. I put money instead of integrity first. Tried to pull a fast one and got caught. Now maybe I can’t even sell much to them. I’m very sorry and I’ve [..more..]
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the emptyness is overwhelming and the pressure is unbarable..i have a house, a son, some family members and a full time job…my life isnt that bad i just have this overwhelming feeling of emptyness…i want to fix it i want my life to be full and happy..i just want to void to vanish..slowly slip out [..more..]
15-02-12(2:36:07)
I’m tired of everything.. I’m surrounded by bunch of people but I can still feel empty inside. A lot of people ask me what’s wrong, but no one seems to care. I’m tired of faking a smile everyday. I feel pressure and everything I I do doesn’t seem enough. Family, school, friends, crushes, these things [..more..]
13-01-12(7:42:49)
as the pressure of my dreams crash into the expectations of the world. i begin to suffocate.
19-09-11(21:58:30)
so here goes. i assume no one will read this, but if at least one person does ill feel better. everyone knows about the “pressure to be perfect” but i take it further. if i see an imperfection in myself i just have to keep at it until its gone. im 14 years old, 8 [..more..]