huh
It really amazes me the person I have so far turned out to be. When I was really young I seen myself being everything I learned about. When I was in high school I seen myself with a good career possibly in the art industry. I would be happily married with a family. When I [..more..]
Glue
I think I am stuck in the wrong place. I know I made the right decision with my career but I am not so sure about the college. The College I am in is not the right place for me. What scares me more is that I am stuck and there is no way to [..more..]
Why?
(sorry for little to know punctuation or bad grammar just want to write my thoughts down.) I am depressed and confused. I’m not sure anything I do is right anymore, I think I’m a horrible father and my wife has told me that I am a bad husband. I was an artist and a photographer. [..more..]
I’m too tired.
Life is getting repetitive for me. Life is boring. I’m boring. People think I’m boring. Even my ‘best friend’ left me. She’s just distancing herself away from me. I don’t even know what I did wrong. People think I’m lame, awkward, a nerd. I’m just shy and insecure. I feel like pursuing a music career [..more..]
03-04-12(3:42:19)
Its hard to admit, but my personality has changed. I can pin point when I became unhappy. To the day. Something subconsciously changed within me, reflecting back its pretty clear, though at the time, I couldn’t see it. Now with all the time in the world after losing my job that I have invested 5 [..more..]
13-09-11(19:46:25)
It makes so sad when I think about the good old times (when I could carelessly go outside and play or the old west and the way they lived back then) and how they’re forever gone. I’m also constantly obsessed with the future; I keep thinking of what career should I pursue and how I’m [..more..]
08-09-11(12:14:21)
Do you ever find yourself just wondering what’s next in your life. You look around you. You have lots of things but your just not happy. Family, friends, possessions. But you just don’t feel like you belong in this world. You find your life to be in a rut, going no where. You claim your [..more..]
31-07-11(23:48:25)
sitting alone in my room thinking about missed opportunities and wishing it was diferent. I am lucky that i have a fab family and great friends but wish somethings i had done differently. My career, schooling but mostly letting the boy I love walk away as i was in a bad place. Spending the last [..more..]