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I saw the pencil sharpener, and broke out in to an immense fit, the tears flooded down my face. I just froze there like a pillar of salt and looked at the little screws on the hand held pencil sharpener, which had appeared to have had been loosened. I picked up the dainty little thing [..more..]
29-03-12(20:23:12)
Gaaa, I kinda hate myself really. I can’t keep my head straight, I can’t think clear, I can’t do anything right. I’m just waiting for the day you’ll never talk to me again. I’m waiting to be abandoned by some other jerk again. Go ahead, tell me I’m ugly, stupid, imperfect. You can clearly doubt [..more..]
26-03-12(4:33:38)
I can’t believe I just did it. I broke a promise. I cut. I barely knew what I was doing until I saw the blood and felt the pain. I don’t know if it will help me, but it felt… bittersweet. Like I got what I deserved but I know people cared about me if [..more..]
07-01-12(7:20:42)
Remember that day when you were talking about other girls infront of me, your girlfriend? And then my first instinked was to grab your skateboard and wack you with it? Funny story since i did, then you got all pissed, Got up and walked away, 5 minutes later you walked beck and i was still [..more..]
29-11-11(2:45:37)
im falling down an abyss that i wont be able to get out of. depression is a f***ed up thing. just sitting in my room thinking about things that happened today and i keep looking at my razor blade. i want the blade to run slowly across my wrists and ill love every second of [..more..]
09-08-11(21:29:08)
Well this Summer I have done absolutely nothing. I haven’t hung out with any of my friends. School starts Monday and I really wanted to go to the movies with my friend because he is moving to Ohio Friday. Well i asked mom for 15 dollars she said she didn’t have it until Thursday and [..more..]
death is so scary. i always think im dying. im only 20 i should not have so many little medical problems. i shouldnt feel this way. i should feel strong. are these symtums of something major ive been missing i dont know. i think im dying slowly but im to afraid to tell anyone they [..more..]