23-01-12(4:53:43)
Tomorrow I go and get help for my bulimia. So tonight I had one last binge and major purge. I couldn’t throw up hard enough for my satisfaction tonight. There is something really wrong with me. I hope tomorrow everything changes. I hope I can find the help that I have needed for so long [..more..]
23-01-12(3:43:04)
back to life again, none. thought maybe after almost 30 years of marriage it would be our time to enjoy each others company but not so. i do everything i can for him, the kids do everything they can and never complain. still he is a grump from hell just about every day. he has [..more..]
23-01-12(2:39:19)
I keep looking at them.its hurts me to see him with her. we broke up fro a reason, i know. but still, i care. i want him back. im not gunna lie to myself and say i dont, because in reality i really do. but hes with her. i cant do anything about it. evem [..more..]
23-01-12(2:03:15)
I am fifteen, female, British, and I am lost. I see everyone else’ thoughts and I see their pain, and I wish it were mine. They all talk about the loss of love, the feeling of rejection; whereas I feel what I think can be the worst type of pain… loss of self. I don’t [..more..]
23-01-12(0:20:56)
It’s so f***ing unfair how things pan out soemtimes. In my fmaily I’m the youngest, but I somehow always end up being the one pushed tot he side. It’s ridiculous how my older sister can always get away with whatever she wants. Anythign she says goes, but my aprents don’t realize how f***ing unfair it [..more..]
23-01-12(0:07:11)
there is this guy that i used to like. like, REALLY like. i’ve never felt that way about a guy before him or since him. he never liked me back, and it took me FOREVER to get over him, about 6 months to completely heal i’d say. now we’ve reconnected. the first time i saw [..more..]
22-01-12(23:31:56)
There is this guy who i love but he keeps chanches his mine about me everytime im about to move on he comes into my life again! I wish he can just love me or just leave me and my pain alone… I wish i could just move on just like he does. it seems [..more..]
22-01-12(12:02:22)
He just changed his status to single… Misunderstood, mistreated.. no longer the love of my life? How could that be….Our bodies used to melt into eachother, our hands fit perfectly together, lips so sensual together, big spoon to little spoon.. years, emotions, tears, love… I will never feel again.. Trust.. he says that he does [..more..]
22-01-12(10:40:54)
CJ, I wish things would be different. Tell me you love me and never hurt me… I want to just give up on love… I’ve failed you, but youve failed me… Youre making me more insecure, maybe i just wont be good enough for anyone… Just tell me you love me, tell me that you [..more..]
22-01-12(10:12:51)
Everyday I’m hurting myself and my relationship. Constant thoughts that play in my head. Constant accusations I throw at him… NOT GOOD ENOUGH. NOT PRETTY ENOUGH. TOO FAT. NOT SMART ENOUGH. THE SEX ISN’T GOOD OR OFTEN ENOUGH. BREASTS NOT BIG ENOUGH. FACE NOT PRETTY ENOUGH. He constantly has to find ways to feel better [..more..]