Lies…..
Where do I begin? My mom is always lying to me. First , she tells me “Honey you will get your new phone tomorrow” Today is tomorrow. Next, she says ” Baby your dad didn’t get your plane ticket”. Actually I believe that is the truth. Lets start on my dad. He has one child [..more..]
I don’t know
I feel utterly powerless to my own unforgiving nature of not accepting the fact that the girl I’m with truly loves me, this scares me so much. Because everyday I look at her I feel as though she could do so much better than me.
This Can’t be all in My head…
My birthday is Sunday, only 6 days from today. I’ll be 17. I’ve been trying desperately to live like the teenager that I am but there is just so much that gets in the way of that happening. I don’t live with my parents or my sister (which kills me) due to our recent homelessness. [..more..]
school
i feel like i have so many expectations to live up to at school, but at the same time im best friends with this genius girl. she’s athletic and just generally amazing at everything she does. she admits that she doesn’t even put a lot of effort into the things she does. i know it’s [..more..]
mom hates me
my mom treats me like im no body. like im s***. im so f***ing done
WHY
WHY HAVENT YOU TEXT ME !!!! godit annoys me so much I thought we had something. im not telling my friends I feel like a fool I REALLY TRIED I JUST DONT SHOW MY EMETIONS VERY WELL. EVEN IF YOU HAD TEXT I SUPPOSE nothing would become of us eventually but I still want to [..more..]
am i replacing him
god we loved and lived so much I have to type this to you I want to make you listen I want you to hear me you never did you gave me so much you were there in body once…. it nearly killed me when you told me you didn’t love me, even though I [..more..]
I’m angry at myself.
S*** s*** s*** s***! What is wrong with me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I keep thinking about yesterday. The guy I am going out with finally kissed me, after more than four dates where we got to know better. And then… We went to his place. And we had f***ing sex. And I’m so [..more..]
i’m in love with my best friend
okay hi idk what this is but hey whatever. I just thought maybe i could write to vent so hello. I’m in love with my best friend. And it is killing me. We always tell each other we love each other. But it wouldn’t work. And i wish I could get over this but I [..more..]
I want to swear
I can’t rest. My sleep is filled with restlessness. I can’t talk about it anymore. Everything seems so drawn out. People don’t really seem to understand. They pity me without any insight. I’m losing my mind here. Everything is talking to me. The f***ing lampshade is smiling at me and i can’t shake these demons. [..more..]