Posted by Anonymous on 2014/02/11 under Uncategorized god we loved and lived so much I have to type this to you I want to make you listen I want you to hear me you never did you gave me so much you were there in body once…. it nearly killed me when you told me you didn’t love me, even though I no it was over and I felt the same. I remember being at the bottom of the bed. I accept I made some errors I f***ed up why couldn’t you. it doesn’t matter now anyway its all history, except its still obviously matters to me!!! or I wouldn’t be sat here now would I my head hurts 4 years dan. what went wrong … im scared ill never have that love again I no we loved each other once what happened.
we sp[lit up I hope you are fine except I want you to hurt too I want you to hurt like I have. I ran into the comfort of mikes bed (you never met him , I met him after we split) poor dude I think I blew his mind im a odd girl , what im tryna say is I tried replacing you too soon and now I wake up every morning thinking about him and im bitter because I hardly hear from him now, because I called it off but mike was a good kid it was just too soon after you dan , why do I want to say this to you. guess I haven’t replaced the void that you left , see you were my best friend and I looked upto you so much I told you things you saw everything and now I feel cheated like ill never trust again.. look how ive been with mike, I wouldn’t let him in I couldn’t even f*** properly because my mind was racing paranoid thinking . and now I just want to hear from him, im just tryna figure out if its you that I miss or him ? im confused and lost. I want attention I want friendship I want to be looked after again accept I don’t want to admit it. will I get through this. I don’t want to go to bed with that pang that ache and wake up feeling twice as exhausted. I had a dream about you the other night im angry that you were cowardly and made me feel like we had hope I thought we were true y’no? I no I didn’t love you anymore but it still stings like f*** it aches I respected you so much, I replaced you but it was nothing and something because I still think about mike and the way he understood.. I don’t want to push people away I want to trust I want come through this. but im 26 and life’s scary who will ever love me. what will I do I want to ask you. .