Posted by CurlyTurd on 2014/02/11 under Uncategorized My birthday is Sunday, only 6 days from today. I’ll be 17. I’ve been trying desperately to live like the teenager that I am but there is just so much that gets in the way of that happening. I don’t live with my parents or my sister (which kills me) due to our recent homelessness. I live with my grandmother while my sister, mom, and dad live with a friend of theirs. There really is no room for me. My dad abuses my mom. My mom called me 2 days ago at 12:00 am to tell me that he has been hitting her more than he usually does. That she wants to leave but has nowhere to go. My mom already suffers from clinical depression, and I’m afraid this abuse will lead to her suicide. I love her so much, I lose sleep at night thinking about ways to help. Thinking about what my life would be like without her. I wake up with puffy eyes from crying myself to sleep thinking about these things. I wish with every essence of my being that I could help her, but I honestly don’t know what to do. I can’t talk to my grandmother (her mother) about it because she doesn’t want anything to do with my mom. She believes that everything that has happened in my life is my moms fault, which pisses me off. I have thought about hurting my dad. I have thought about sending him to jail. I have thought about ripping the family apart. I promised my mom that I would get a job and save up enough to rent an apartment so she and my sister can stay there, but finding a job is so hard, especially if you don’t have any transportation. I’m so overwhelmed and stressed out with all these problems that I just can’t fix. Nobody understands. I refrain from telling my best and most trusted friends about it because I feel that I would just be ranting about stuff they just don’t get. I’ve been stressing over how to take care of my family while maintaining good grades and some sort of social life and I feel like I’m going to explode. I honestly feel like this stress is eating away at my sanity and I just don’t know what to do.
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I know what your going through my nana & grandpa went through the same . I didn’t know what to do ,but maybe you should send him to jail he abuses your mom that isn’t right If i was you i would have called the police right away… , BUT DO WHAT YOU THINK IS BEST
I can truly understand ur feelings. The most effective thing I can suggest u is say your mom to keep quiet for sometime and say nothing for any decisions. Next you have to start earning (may be very less) as soon as possible but remember do not choose wrong way for money.
Only your emotional and financial support will make everything ok.
I believe you need to take control of the situation. You are in a dangerous place with all this around you. Hurting him would not make it better, you become a hypocrite. Sending him to jail seems to be the only worth while option. But you have to understand, that while your mom is being beaten, there are things she could do to stop it. If she wanted too. I had this problem with my mom’s ex. He was violent, and hit her, and did things to her. And I got sick of it, I threatened him to leave her alone, to leave, and he kept coming back because my mom kept giving him chances. One faithful night about a year ago, he attempted to kill my mom. Only to be thwarted by me, who was already over the breaking point, when I saw the knife, I knew I had to protect her. I saved my mom that night, but got stabbed in the process. I don’t want that to be like that for you. You need to take control of it now, before it gets outta hand Like I did.
Good luck to you, and your life.
-Soul1991
Even though you said you restrain from telling your closest friends, I think you should. I understand that you want your dad to be away from your mom but don’t want to risk ripping your family apart in the process. If I, a total stranger, understand your story, I’m almost positive that your closest friends, that know you better than anyone else besides your family, will understand. And trust me when I say this, it feels really good to tell people.