UGH!!! I feel like im drowning.!
I hate my life! My homework is piling up i took my sat’s yesterday and my grandparents with whom I live with are calling me a liar and saying they know I wasn’t at school.. I cant stand being here. My grandma told me to leave because she doesn’t want any bad testimonies in her [..more..]
Feeling lonely
Disclaimer: I’m writing this as thoughts are coming into my head, incoherently. I’m a 26 year old guy living in a foreign country for higher studies, far, far away from my own. I feel really lonely. I’ve never been with a girl, but would someday surely like to be with one. Please don’t judge me. [..more..]
family fighting
I’m currently sitting in my room on the 3rd floor of my house and I can hear my mom screaming and yelling at my dad in the basement and she’s swearing in front of my 6 year old brother is who is crying. My dad is yelling too and im so f***ing sick of it. [..more..]
Grief
I wish I could believe in the afterlife. I wish I could believe the soul left the body upon death and ascended into some beautiful realm. I wish more than anything that I had faith. I have no faith. Now I will never be sure. My anamchara died, my best friend, my sworn soul mate. [..more..]
me
I hate my self
Lost and Confuse
It feels like I am six feet under, I might as well be. I recently graduated from college. I lost my job and me. I moved out of my mom’s place and moved in with my boyfriend because I was mentally stressed out. Living with my mom was very stressful. I had to take care [..more..]
Figure it out
I really don’t get you right now. One moment you seem like your head over heals for me and then the next you just wanna be my friend. I even told you I liked you. You held my hand and you kissed me,all I want is you. I don’t know what’s going on in that [..more..]
Tonight
Tonight I might cut for the second time, there’s no scars from my first time..I’m going to be 12 on the 24th…Last time I cut I actually posted here. I’m not sad…or mad…I just feel something deep down inside of me aching to get out. I just feel like it’s the boy i’m..in LOVE with. [..more..]
Take Control…but how?
I’m hoping to do a better job of opening myself to loving myself and trying to accept myself. I think I treat myself pretty damn s***ty. I allow myself to settle far to often. I really do want more for myself. I just allow myself to get caught up on things in my past. I [..more..]
I am in love with my teacher
It’s not just a crush. 3 years is long enough for me to know that I’m madly and uncontrollably in love with my teacher. She’s beautiful inside and out and even though I know the love will never be returned but I can’t help but feel like this. Her smile absolutely melts me and sometimes [..more..]