I seem like a nice guy but deep down im a total bastard,ive no time for anyone really,i enjoy conversations,but it annoys me when i listen to someone talk about their life and their family,their children,i even have this with cousins and aunties they just bore the f*** out of me and their children talk,when im tired im worse,show them i lack interest,they see it in my eyes,im jealous,and envious i never had kids.I think its why im alone,why no one wants to be with me or around me.I deserve to be alone because im a bastard,but not a very bad bastard,just a below average bastard.And all im fit for,is to be around drunks drug addicts,f*** ups,lunatics,mentally ill,gambling junkies pot heads,hookers,im with the soul less,the misfits,the abused and the abusers.Ive got nothing going on for me,apart from this.for the rest of my f***ing days.maybe im more like my a****** dad than i really thought.
You’re not an a****** or a bastard. You’re able to see all the things that are wrong in a way. Look, we all make mistakes, maybe we repeat some of them, but it’s in our nature .You’re not a bad guy. And you , just like everyone else in this world, deserve the best . Focus on yourself and be the change you want to see in others. I’m here for you , I’m willing to be your friend or just someone that listens to you. You’re not alone, you’re amazing.
you gay