Making me feel unworthy

Idk anymore…my best friend…I think she thinks im annoying..and she grew tired of me..witch its fine by me..i just idk..i sont want to live int his universe anymore..stupid people..stupid thoughts..stupied not understanding…i cant find anyone…worth spending time on..

03-12-11(20:04:12)

I dream of my kids dying. every night. i dream of them being paralyzed. i can’t even think of them knowing s*** i did before. i die a bit every day thinking of how unworthy i am to have them. I cry every night knowing that my kids will die and i will have to [..more..]

its so hard to feel happy when f***ing people have told you your s*** and selfish and rude and unworthy and fat but maybe i am those things