Its hard

Being 12 I feel like I’m not aloud to be sad because that’s just absurd right? A 12 year old can’t know what it feels like to lonely or feel like there being consumed by the world because they can’t speak. I told my parents about going to see a therapist and they laughed and [..more..]

31-12-11(1:50:52)

I am in love with my therapist. He is 20 years older and I love everything about him.

03-11-11(0:27:22)

I’m venting here. This is okay. I need to let myself know that… Its all going to be okay. Alright: I’ve been hurting myself. Not that I want to kill myself, I love being alive, but, well I don’t really get why. I cut myself with my fingernails. I just push them into my skin [..more..]

11-08-11(20:27:54)

Why do I even bother talking? No one listens. Sometimes I wonder if I really even listen to myself. It hurts so bad knowing I have no one to talk to. My therapist is great, but she can’t always be there to help me through things. I’m so sick of hearing dogs bark, trying to [..more..]

I don’t still love him but I still have feelings for him. And when I see him and he ignores me, I know it’s because I lied and he knows.. I wish he didn’t know. If only he hadn’t told his parents, cared so much.. but I just wanted the attention. I hate everything about [..more..]