I’m done!!!!!
I’m not going to sit in silence anymore I have been hurting for 3 years and I’m sick of putting on a happy face for people I tried 5 times to get help and if no one is going to help me then fine I’ll try to help myself cause I cant take this anymore [..more..]
Snow.
When you are lying in bed, listening to the sound of rain, there is no pattern. You can not predict what sound is going to come next like the steady beating of a heart, or the low, repetitive, hum and the odd clank that a train makes. Drops fall from the heavens. Hurtling down towards [..more..]
Masks, oh how I hate my own.
I’m so tired of keeping a straight face. Some times I’m tempted to let death into my place, I know it woulnd help much but it might erase some of this pain. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to live, I want to die, I want to be able to be [..more..]
Eldest, Only, Haven, and First. Part one as you might see them again.
Eldest and Only. Haven, and First. Ohh when making four of these Life sure did her worst. Only to see and hear all, but never understand all as she strives. First to sow his seed of life and reap of yet death. Haven to guide, little Only. Eldest to grow, Only into something new, more [..more..]
Parody
Death. My life is spent. Living to die, and yet dying to live. Time. A portion of human existance. Forever faded by segments of life. Now. The present. A gift of experience. Gone is tomorrow, where now is today, and yesterday yet to be lived. Forward. The perception, taken by humans, of the original direction [..more..]
PLEASE READ
You don’t want to die. You just want to be free. Death is not going to make that happen. You have to be here to experience that freedom. Your problem, your past, your situation don’t define you, or the rest of your life. You are going to get through this. Don’t ever give up. Hope.
Death
I’m scared of death. Not to myself or anything, although I’m scared of what’s on the other side when I do die. I guess I’m just scared moreso of being alone. My parents are older, not old exactly but when your 14 and your dad’s 60 you think a lot about it, and are aware [..more..]
I Worry About Death
My grandfather and my aunt passed away in the past year. They were both really special to me, and it is weird that they are gone from my life. It made me realize that everyone is going to die one day. And it really scares me. I feel like I don’t have enough time. To [..more..]
Alone.
I feel so apart from people. I look around and see the people around me laughing and talking with each of their friends. I am always surrounded by those people, unintentionally mocking me with their happiness and friendship while I stand alone, unseen and unwanted. If only I could be truly invisible, then I could [..more..]
I have a feeling my life will end soon
Everyone gets a feeling sooner or later. Some, earlier than others, some after they’ve passed. But me, I’m 14 years old, and I feel like death is living with me, just waiting for me. Every night, I feel if someone is whispering in my ear. “Come along, Melissa, your time is running out…..Tick tock goes [..more..]