Posted by Anonymous on 2012/05/10 under Uncategorized so here I am, again, talking to the only person that never leaves me, me! if I could tell them…tell them that I want to be free…I want to be happy…
they say writing helps…so here it goes
something’s missing…is this me? is this all I am? all I can be?
just when I want to make it all better, my illusion crumbles, shatters and breaks
and I’m left in an empty room, alone…again
what is this big hole in my chest? I have everything, right?
then why do I feel like I’m living in one big lie?
do I please them…?
do I please me?
my own heart is a mess I don’t understand, my mind is no different…
who am I?
I don’t know…
I just want to be happy…and right now, father, I’m not…
If you’re there…this is my heart speaking
I just want to be happy
I just want to be loved…for ones in my life…
feel truly and deeply loved by someone I love too
who am I?
why do I feel like there’s a knife in my heart when everything is allright, nothing’s wrong
but then why do I feel like a fist is around my heart, sqweezing , hurting…
what is this…depression? heartache?
the little girl inside of me is just waiting for someone to remember that I’m here,
the little girl inside me is still waiting for everything to be allright …
the little girl inside me is still waiting for somebody that pickes her up, kisses her cheek and
tells her, everything will be ok, I will take care of you…
but that somebody never came…that somebody may not even exist…that somebody is what I miss
my head is a mess…my heart is in pieces, and noone is ever going to put them together…
noone will ever know…
they forgot about the little girl
they forgot to help her grow
they forgot to love her
and she’s still waiting, after all these years, she’s still waiting
how pathetic is that?
her body grew, but her heart…her heart stayed the same…broken and abandoned
forsaken by all…