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Posted by on 2020/03/25 under Life

If rainbows are only illusions,
was that stupid crush an illusion too?
It sure felt real.
And if rainbows are visions,
did my dreams mean anything?
Because i felt our lips lock
and your hands crawl up my torso,
even if only in slumber.
Those dreams changed me.

Kermit says
they were wrong.
About rainbows, that is.
Not visions.
Not illusions.
I'll find a Rainbow Connection.
Someday, anyway.
I pray.

I know it won't be with you.
It's been too many years,
and you've found your girl
with her buzz-cut confidence,
and I'm not out, I'm
Feminine.
Christian.
Virgin.
No, it won't be with you.

Someday I'll find it.
Will I?

Now this part, I can believe:
"Rainbows have nothing to hide."
The pins.
The flags.
Without them,
Without courage,
I am hidden.

Is this the only way?
(Am I even gay?)

I don't know.
If it was an illusion,
then why dream of a Rainbow Connection?

Perhaps
the Lovers
the Dreamers
and Me
isn't me.

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