Posted by Mindy1718 on 2014/10/14 under Uncategorized Have you ever felt that the world was against you and with you in different parts of your life? It happens often to a lot of people or some people could just feel one more than the other. Experiencing this has made me grow to who I am. Right now I’ve been losing myself because of the lack of sharing what my thoughts, my ideas, my own experiences to the ones I love… I want to talk but the ones who I talk to, they don’t want to hear me out to the point where I grow tired of talking. I listen to other people’s conversations and their personal lives but what about mines? My personality is like a curse but then again I think it’s wonderful. I think of others but then again, I tend to judge real quick… I love the earth bu then again, I don’t like the way it looks sometimes… Why is it that the world is difficult? What is the true story of the world becoming one big disaster yet it still has beauty within it? Is there such a thing as a God or is it a myth? I simply don’t believe until I see it with my own eyes to be honest. I want to know the real truth but often I’m blind. What life does you see grown within yourself? I see a lot of emptiness within myself. The pieces to my puzzle are missing a lot recently. I don’t know how it can be fix yet, I do! to some extent I see that the thing I lack most is a good friend to talk to. I have lots of friends but do they really want to listen to me all the way? Never has anyone heard of my real wants and not laughed at them like they were impossible. Doing the impossible is not true, I’ve seen it! My family seems to be different now, we are spreading into our own little family with our own problems. Where do I fit in??? I seem to want us to be together but yet, I don’t. I want to see him, my most loved one. To bad that he’s not here because I needed him for five years when “we” said that we’ll always be together. I’m so stupid for thinking that so simply. It was never fun and games, it was real until his family said that I was not suited for an elite, a higher person in society. Growing up in bad situations has its perks in America but where he’s from is never the same thing. People like back in the day are supposed to be married to the same class. I feel sorry for him but then again, the hope of his well being is always good to know. I know that I’m not doing much now to help my situations when I keep them to myself. I’m so lonely!!! It hurts to know that no one can listen to you doesn’t it? You want to be heard but when is it the right time? I never thought about whether it was ever a right time to talk about my life because people would rather talk about themselves wouldn’t they? The pleasure of wanting to let someone hear you out feels good but when will the world let me do so?