Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/19 under Uncategorized Life just pisses me off sooooooo much. Like, trying to focus on school, you never have time just to hang out or do your own thing. My parents just keep on putting pressure on me to get good grades at school. My teachers are stressing me out to get A’s at the end of the year… Everyone thinks im superman! Im just a human. Im not capable of all this….Sometimes I just want to kill myself but my mother didn’t raise me as a weak person…. I keep on telling myself ‘I can handle it…I just got 1 more year to go..’ but to be honest, I know i can’t go further than this… I just wanna leave school… Do my own thing…. Live a stress-free life but I can’t… Especially if i live in a place like this where everyone is under pressure! I’ve had enough!!! Im not gonna let people push me around anymore… I need to stop being scared of everyone because i shouldnt fear them… but im a coward… i dont have the guts to express myself… i just give up… i dont know what to do or where to go… it feels like im sinking in the depths of a never ending abyss… drowning… not being able to wake up… slowly dieing in the darkness of the night…i wish this is over…The only thing that keeps me going is Islam…If i wasnt a muslim, God knows where i would be right now… But i have to be patient, because i know that there is a better place waiting for me… i just have to focus on my religion and i will get there…Insha Allah (If God wills)
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