Posted by Anonymous on 2019/01/17 under Love Ive been battling depression and anxiety for a while now. I had even tried to kill myself. Flash forward to now and I have a boyfriend of almoat 2 years. He knows about my struggles. He too ia going through some stuff of his own. Recently he talks to me about his thoughts and I try to give him my best advice because i know where hes coming from, ive been there. But it hurts when it just seems like hes talking AT me and saying things like no one understands, or adds a, ya know at the end of a sentence. As if I dont know. As if i simply couldnt fathom the stress and kinds of feelings hes going through. One day I sort of anaped back. I said, yeah I DO KNOW. I tried to kill myself and take anxiety medication to help me sleep at night because the voices wont stop. He responded by ignoring most of what I said and saying tjat he doesnt like to call it voices, more like bad thoughts, and proceded to talk about other things. I didnt bring it up again. Now I just let hom talk at me and dont really give him my advice/help. Mostly because hes going to start seeing a therapist (lucky him because my insurance doesnt cover it at the moment). I'm ashamed that I feel this sort of ugly jealousy twords him because he's able to quickly go to a counselor no problem and the sick feeling of "I have it worse" in the back of my mind. Its not a competition, we're both fighting our own battles. It just hurts that my own boyfriend seems to be insensitive towards me. I always try to help others with their problems, talk to them how to sort things out and to just be there, especially for him because i love him. But it just doesnt seem fair that im the only one trying to help. As if I'm just being used…..