Posted by Anonymous on 2017/09/24 under Life 2 weeks…its been two weeks since my finaće had passed. Everywhere I go I see you. Every decision I make I think about how you would want me to approach if you were stil here. It doesnt feel like you are gone. Not a day has gone by without you in my thoughts. Just the thought of life without you around scares me. You were the only person I had in my life. I have no friends, no family, just you. What am I suppose to do now that youre gone? It all still feels unreal , everytime I close my eyes I can see your face. Your smile..how happy we were when we were together. How we promised we would never leave each other and were going start our lives together finally. I dont want to live anymore.. It hurts so much. I dont know what to with myself. I want to go to where you are. Why didnt you take me with you? Why did you leave me all by myself in this world? Life wasnt life without you. You wouldn't get mad at me if I go find you right? Even if I cant find you Im just tired…Im tired of living in this scary world. I have no purpose anymore…I just want to go to sleep forever.
Sweetheart, I know what your going through is excruciating. I know that the pain you feel is suffocating you. It may seem silly for me to tell you to hold on when I cannot possibly understand the extend of what you are experiencing. But I do know one thing. With time our wounds are healed. Eventually you will begin seeing the wonder this world holds for you. Turning to Jesus saved my life, and He showed me that we are on this planet to be lights to other people. We can make change in a world that is seemingly dark. No matter who you are, no matter what you’ve been through, no matter what you’ve faced, you are still here and that is a reason to keep living. You are never too damaged to show the world your light. Never too broken to be healed. Stay strong hun, I’m only 16 but I know you have something special. You have a fighting spirit. You can do it. I believe in you. It is time you believe in yourself.