true understanding

yeah today is okay I have more to do yet but what would be nice is at the end of today I get some male company companionship that would be very nice and thoughtful but evea way it’s cool I ran a little today made me fill so freaking good please let everything go good [..more..]

Making me feel unworthy

Idk anymore…my best friend…I think she thinks im annoying..and she grew tired of me..witch its fine by me..i just idk..i sont want to live int his universe anymore..stupid people..stupid thoughts..stupied not understanding…i cant find anyone…worth spending time on..

05-08-11(14:16:08)

Life is full of pain, sadness, anger but it is also filled with happy memories. All this feelings is part of LIFE and it is something we humans need to go through. Understanding and accepting is totally different. Although I understand this but when I am going through all the pain and sorrow is just [..more..]

sure we smile in public but behind close doors I love you like crazy I feel like ever since we stopped being friends we left a void of questions unanswered I love you so so much and I hope you feel the same Jesus has taught me alot and all I want is for us [..more..]

I rang you today… we only spoke for a short while but it was lovely to hear your voice… I asked if you were up here you said no down south… I said down south where you belong… you sounded rejected and flat from my comment… I have so much trouble understanding you at times…There [..more..]

i wish you would just shut up about your weight. everyone knows you are skinny, we are all aware of that without you going on about it all the time. “and everyone keeps saying i should put weight on” etc etc. and i’m just SO SICK OF IT. and dont tell me that i’m not [..more..]