Bits and pieces, the story of the protector
I could tell you things that would make your skin crawl, and maybe I will in telling the story of my life so far. I tend to skip things and go in a random order, I may start with something that happened ten years ago and skip to something that happened yesterday, I’m not sorry [..more..]
I Am Insecure, I Know What For…
My body is far from perfect. I always get people saying, “Oh you look so great.” And, “You are so skinny!” But That is not the truth. I weigh a lot, and I have a ton of imperfections that I try and hide. First of all, I am really pale. Now that it’s winter, my [..more..]
Done
Im falling apart and I cant do anything about it. I have no money, Im trapped in a place I dont want to be, and I cant get out of here because I have nowhere to go. Im trying hard to get through school but its so much money and I love getting to learn, [..more..]
Not worth it anymore
I used to wake up and be happy to go to school. Now I am a senior and it is so hard. People say I will miss high school, but I really won’t. They don’t know what I go through. On a day to day basis I am constantly being judged. People make fun of [..more..]
29-03-12(20:23:12)
Gaaa, I kinda hate myself really. I can’t keep my head straight, I can’t think clear, I can’t do anything right. I’m just waiting for the day you’ll never talk to me again. I’m waiting to be abandoned by some other jerk again. Go ahead, tell me I’m ugly, stupid, imperfect. You can clearly doubt [..more..]
27-03-12(21:20:42)
I thought I could never fall in love again and I let you go to not hurt you. But now I know I loved you with all my heart and I’ve got you under my skin. If some day you read this, please come back and rescue me from myself. I don’t know what to [..more..]
17-11-11(9:54:16)
my mind blocked out everything but then it all came back at me at once, now my wrists are bleeding and its so hard to stop. I just want to cut away everything I feel dirty I feel like my skin just needs to be hacked at. Is that the only way I can get [..more..]
18-08-11(5:51:16)
I don’t know why I do this, but I allow myself to get depressed. To become so hung up on other people’s outer appearances and lives that I look back on mine with hatred and disgust and feel nothing but inferiority. It’s not like this all the time- I often have moments of happiness and [..more..]
I just want to get out of here! I don’t hate my life, I have an amzing mother, a wonderful brother, a hilarious boyfriend, the best friends a girl could ask for, I live a comfortable life etc. etc… but I just want to get out of here!!! I’ve been stuck here for so long [..more..]