A Calm Mask
A calm mask That’s all I have It’s the only thing keeping me from crashing All the emotions I put aside Forcing a smile on my face For friends and Family alike I wear a different mask for all An angel for my family A funny geek for one group of friends A calm, cool, [..more..]
Masks, oh how I hate my own.
I’m so tired of keeping a straight face. Some times I’m tempted to let death into my place, I know it woulnd help much but it might erase some of this pain. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to live, I want to die, I want to be able to be [..more..]
Fake
Every single day, I have to hide behind this mask. I feel so fake, but I cannot show my emotions. I must be happy all the time. Truth is, behind my smile, I am dying inside. I cannot simply open up my feelings to anyone because I feel like no one on this earth understands. [..more..]
Reflections
Do you guys believe people can change? Because today I looked in the mirror and realized I didn’t like the girl who was staring back at me. Yeah, she looked pretty and yeah she looked happy but she also looked lost and confused.She looked back at me like she didn’t realize her own reflection and [..more..]
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so many time where you need to take on a personal in order to adapt to certain situation, i feel like for the 19 yrs i have been wearing a mask in order to pleased other. it got to a point where i don’t know who i am anymore š and sometimes i just don’t [..more..]
16-06-12(7:07:25)
I hate it. I am too paranoid. I am paranoid about being paranoid. I can’t tell anyone about my feelings or mention the fact I have them. I need to verbally throw up but I lack trust in anyone. My friends used to care about my thoughts and feelings once. It’s safe here with a [..more..]
31-03-12(1:17:32)
I have a surgery on the 24th April. Sooo scared of going to the operation room and that mask that makes you sleepy. I want to live and i don’t think i survived this.
29-02-12(1:34:40)
Who knows??? Who thinks they know me??? You donāt really know me, they only know the fake mask I put on every morning. You donāt know who I want to be, you donāt know who I really am or what I have been thru, lots of things just suck! but if you really do know [..more..]