Starving to be Substantial
I’m not sure what else to say except that while I’m relatively healthy (minus the suicidal tendencies) for my frame, I feel hideous and grotesque. I haven’t eaten more than 500 calories for some time now. I don’t consider myself to be anorexic, particularly since I don’t have a lethal condition. My body needs to [..more..]
Clipped wings
Is there any way of feeling credible? Whenever I do anything in life I find it hard not to be conscious of the ridiculousness of it all. Human endeavour, political will, excelling at work or physical exertions like running or dancing. All of it peels at my raw skin, exposes something intimate which renders me [..more..]
24-03-12(1:03:59)
I love him, and thats why im scared to loss him. The doctor says he is in critical condition and wont let any visitors in, but they tells me that he’s been asking for me and his best friend, so finally they let us two in and i dont want to leave, his condition is [..more..]
09-12-11(20:20:01)
“I don’t see how it’s the answer to a medical condition” “My hand hurts when I write as well?” Does your hand feel like it’s being cut open but un trained monkeys? and then poked around by little needles attached to fire from hell? No. I don’t think it does. So stop being f***ing pathetic [..more..]