Posted by Anonymous on 2012/10/20 under Uncategorized you were my first love and maybe not my last, but i love you like a fully lit rainbow and your smile brightens up my day, i fake a smile and my friends believe it sickens me that my friends cant see through me and say i know your not ok but i wanna run my own race i dont want pitty i can and will get through it alone give me time and i will be fine.Fine. I prefer to be alone.Run my own race. Be my own person. Fight alone i will be who i am. I dont care if im stodd there with a army or if im stood alone as long as i know im ready to fight im ready for the up coming war i can do this i will fight untill my last punch. i will fight i will survive. My broken heart will mend. My broken soul will defend. Me. I am me. You broke me yet i still fight.You give me every reason to not love you but i fall in love all over again each day. I wish I could stop the pain. This pains un real. Why do I still love you?
i used to feel the same way.i was that person you talked to if you needed advice but when the tables were turned i felt like i can handle everything on my own. i helped so many others why not help myself. until the day i was too overwhelmed and started to harm myself. i turned to my friends and told them everything and they really did help me they didnt judge they listened. now since ur situation deals with a guy my advice to you is that this guy obviously means alot to you but you shouldnt let this guy keep you from moving on. reach out to your friends get their input.